Hi everyone!
I know this is not going to be book related but I just wanna post about something that made it to my "important list" thingy I guess and just sharing my personal experiences and stuffs within this past 2 semester. Anyway, If you guys didn't know I'm on summer break right now and school's officially over. I finished school 2 days ago and next year I'm going to be attending 9th grade.
It is truly an amazing year I spend with my 8th graders classmates, such a blast I was place in the class where I had such a little details about every one of my classmate or even the one who was my friend when I was in elementary and now we rarely socialize again. I make a lot of new friends, and some of them even become my best friends.
The experience I got in this class was absolutely new to me. In my previous grades, I always got what I wanted and then came 8th grade, where I realized that the world did not always revolved around me and we, as a human, I realized it is okay to fall but I think asking is whether we get back up again. This school year makes me learned a lot of things that bring a huge impact on how I deal with life. At some point, I didn't wanna to go to school and just lay there in my bed. At some point, I feel that God didn't answer my prayers. Before, all I wanted is to be a winner but in 8th grade, all I wanted is to be happy, even for a while.
I 100% consider myself as a perfectionist. I stressed myself out when I did not get the perfect results as what I expected. But, in 8th grade I realized that every and each of us is not perfect, we make mistakes and we have flaws. We're not Jesus. We're not perfect. I experienced some hard times this school year, I experienced getting bad scores (even-though my friend said that it's not bad at all, but me being a perfectionist... oh well), I experienced being hated by some of my classmates because I state out the truth and they're completely disagree about that. This school year is such a roller coaster. But, remember guys just hold on there, things will get better in time (promise!)
I remember putting so much effort and stuffs to change my perspective at that time, but it all didn't work out and it make me go insane and desperate. I stressed myself out at that time and I experienced several break down that I haven't had before.
At the end of the year, it all paid. I got the award and trophy that I worked so hard for (even-tough I fail at times). I ended the year with happiness and eventually now my classmates that once hated me, didn't hate me anymore (maybe a little?) but I realized that not everyone is liked by everyone. I had so much fun and I regret nothing by the end of the school year and I'm safe to say that.
I always tried to be thankful for what I have in life. Even-though I was being hated by some of my classmates, I still have my other classmates who supported me until the end. Even-though I had some bad grades at times, I still have another day and another assignments/exams that I can accomplish and make a perfect score out of it. I'm a negative person (being honest lol) but in grade 8th, I tend to be more positive and see the bright side on the problems I faced. Everything happened for a reasons, always remember that!
I promise I'll do better and great next year <3 (finger crossed)
So... yeah! I'm sorry you guys have to hear my rant. This is just my personal experience that I want to share with y'all. I just wanted to say thank you to all the people who supported me this year. For my best friends who convinced me I can when I'm being skeptical about myself. For my parents and sister who always supported me no matter what. For my teachers and even the one who hated me. I can't completed this school year without y'all! Big big big big thank you to God for being always there and take care of me and listened to all my prayers even when I don't get the super fast reply.
Love,
Michelle x
[PS. Thanks to you for reading this, yes you! I love you]
